Hi hi Reader,

1. Happy Valentine's Day!
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2. Which means: Happy birthday to my two sweet girls.
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   They're 11. ELEVEN. WHAT?!?!
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3. What this means right now is that I've had 11 years of Valentine's/Birthday celebrations!
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   And yet, it always feels brand new.
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   ​Very "wherever you go, there you are," isn't it?
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4. Speaking of... on Wednesday I did a weight-lifting workout—my first after a couple weeks off due to catching a gnarly cold and then heading to CA for my retreat.
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   And as I faced down Wednesday's Bulgarian Squats, I found myself back at a familiar place: thinking, "Okay, time to get back into the swing of things."
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   Except I did over 100 weight-lifting workouts last year. Don't we think I'd already be in the swing of things?!
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   I’m literally already in it. And yet. And yet. And yet.
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   No matter how many times I've shown up to the workout (see also: the blank page, the walk, the party prep, the laundry-putting-away, the vulnerable tough conversation that I'm terrifed of and thrilled by), there's always a trill of I don't know what I'm doing but "oh well, here I go!"...
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   Apparently, my brain and I have decided that every workout, every project, every damn thing I do has to feel brand new. Like I’m some baby deer learning to walk. Cool cool.
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5. Maybe that’s just how my brain works. Yours too?
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   And even though I've tried so many times to change it, to remember that I can do hard things, to embody that confidence, maybe it's way less of a problem that I make it out to be.
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   So what if I have wobbly legs at most beginnings?! Oh well.
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   So what if—in the beginnings—I forget what I'm capable of? Oh well.
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   So what if I'm going to experience thousands of gulp, here I go moments in my life? Oh. Well.
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   What if, instead of a problem to be solved, I just decide: that's how this life of mine feels and commit to not letting it mean a damn thing?!
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   What if I simply say "oh well," shrug, and proceed anyway?!?!
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Maybe you need this too?
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"Oh well."
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Give it a go. And full permission to use it daily. Multiple times. Even every few minutes if you need to.
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Because "oh well" if you have to lean on something to help you through. Oh well.
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Also, you're amazing. And you're doing great. Keep going.

PS. Fun fact: Next month, I’m taking my kids to NYC for an adventure. Partly because I need a change of scenery. Partly because Hadestown is calling our names. And partly because I’m hosting a one-day workshop for people who are tired of feeling like life is running them.

Three spots are already spoken for, and I need six people to make it real. Feeling the pull? Get the details here and reserve your spot by Monday!​